"To the most failing failure: you fail."
I've been struggling with myself lately. (I don't know, Mom, is it the shorter days? What is with this?) It seems like the harder I try, the less I accomplish, and the more I want to do, the less I get done. It seems like when I finally finish something, it's not finished well, or it leaves me with a bitter taste in my mouth; a sense that I could have done it better. If only, if only, if only...
The hard truth is that I fail.
I'm not what I should be. I'm not what I'm supposed to be.
Here, though, is where the amazing truth comes in.
I'm not what I once was. I'm not what I have been.
God is so gracious. Everything that I am not is found in Christ. All of my sin - all of my failure - is gone. All of Christ's righteousness is given to me. God looks at me, and He does not see a failure. He sees His child. He sees His perfect one.
His love is not based upon what I accomplish. It is not up to my successes - or my failures.
I can't understand that. It is too wonderful for me to grasp.
I imagine sometimes, though, what it will be like when that great and terrible day comes.
Just think; because of Christ, we can come before God with confidence. We can draw near to the throne of grace without fear.
I like to imagine that I will walk up to the throne with smiling eyes, because I'll see Jesus there - and He will have smiling eyes too. Not by my own might, not by my own success, will I be so free. It is only because of Jesus.
If ever there were a monument set up to remember my failures, the inscription should not be what I mentioned above; rather, it should be something like this:
"She was a failure.
But she was a failure saved by grace, loved by God, and redeemed by Christ."
To Him be the glory, both now and forevermore.
Yes.
ReplyDeleteAnd I know the feeling of failure. You are not alone in feeling that.
But, you know the truth. God sees a perfect individual, through the "Jesus Goggles".
I had to learn this lesson. It took years. I had to learn to let things go, that I wasn't perfect, and never would be, but that it didn't matter.
God loves me anyway.
And you too.
I often feel this way, too.
ReplyDeleteThen I think of Micah 6:8
"He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God."
It is good to know that.
I also think of this quote from Betsie and Corrie ten Boom in The Hiding Place: "There are no ifs in God's kingdom...his timing is perfect. His will is our hiding place."
Yep. Me too.
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ReplyDeleteOvercoming the Feeling of Failure can be long and depressing.
ReplyDeleteBut if are actually Failing then Slow down. you are one person and you can't do everything.
You can't do everything but you can Always do something.
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What wonderful thoughts! I kind of an overachieving perfectionist myself, and I'm just now realizing that failing is okay, I could never do anything on my own anyway--but God has redeemed me through his Son!
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