Monday, December 21, 2009

I'm a Failure.

A monumental one. By that I mean they should put up a monument of me and write in BOLD letters:

"To the most failing failure: you fail."

I've been struggling with myself lately. (I don't know, Mom, is it the shorter days? What is with this?) It seems like the harder I try, the less I accomplish, and the more I want to do, the less I get done. It seems like when I finally finish something, it's not finished well, or it leaves me with a bitter taste in my mouth; a sense that I could have done it better. If only, if only, if only...

The hard truth is that I fail.
I'm not what I should be. I'm not what I'm supposed to be.

Here, though, is where the amazing truth comes in.

I'm not what I once was. I'm not what I have been.
God is so gracious. Everything that I am not is found in Christ. All of my sin - all of my failure - is gone. All of Christ's righteousness is given to me. God looks at me, and He does not see a failure. He sees His child. He sees His perfect one.

His love is not based upon what I accomplish. It is not up to my successes - or my failures.

I can't understand that. It is too wonderful for me to grasp.

I imagine sometimes, though, what it will be like when that great and terrible day comes.
Just think; because of Christ, we can come before God with confidence. We can draw near to the throne of grace without fear.

I like to imagine that I will walk up to the throne with smiling eyes, because I'll see Jesus there - and He will have smiling eyes too. Not by my own might, not by my own success, will I be so free. It is only because of Jesus.

If ever there were a monument set up to remember my failures, the inscription should not be what I mentioned above; rather, it should be something like this:

"She was a failure.
But she was a failure saved by grace, loved by God, and redeemed by Christ."

To Him be the glory, both now and forevermore.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Interesting Song

"Christmas Must Be Something More" - Taylor Swift



What if ribbons and bows didn't mean a thing
Would the song still survive without five golden rings
Would you still wanna kiss without misletoe
What would happen if God never let it snow
What would happen if Christmas carols told a lie
Tell me what would you find

You'd see that today holds something special
Something holy, not superficial
So here's to the birthday boy who saved our lives
It's something we all try to ignore
And put a wreath up on your door
So here's something you should know that is for sure
Christmas must be something more

What if angels did not pay attention to
All the things that we wished they would always do
What if happiness came in a cardboard box
Then I think there is something we all forgot
What would happen if presents all went away
Tell me what would you find

You'd see that today holds something special
Something holy, not superficial
So here's to the birthday boy who saved our lives
It's something we all try to ignore
And put a wreath up on your door
So here's something you should know that is for sure
Christmas must be something more

We get so caught up in all of it
Business and relationships
Hundred mile an hour lives
And it's this time of year
And everybody's here
It seems the last thing on your mind

Is that the day holds something special
Something holy, not superficial
So here's to Jesus Christ who saved our lives
It's something we all try to ignore
And put a wreath up on your door
But here's something you should know that is for sure
Christmas must be something
Christmas must be something
Christmas must be something more

There's gotta be more
There's gotta be more

Monday, November 30, 2009

The Bible is Very Easy to Understand

“The matter is quite simple. The Bible is very easy to understand. But we Christians are a bunch of scheming swindlers. We pretend to be unable to understand it because we know very well that the minute we understand, we are obliged to act accordingly.
Take any words in the New Testament and forget everything except pledging yourself to act accordingly. My God, you will say, if I do that my whole life will be ruined. How would I ever get on in the world?
Herein lies the real place of Christian scholarship. Christian scholarship is the Church’s prodigious invention to defend itself against the Bible, to ensure that we can continue to be good Christians without the Bible coming too close. Oh, priceless scholarship, what would we do without you? Dreadful it is to fall into the hands of the living God.

Yes, it is even dreadful to be alone with the New Testament.”

~ Soren Kierkegaard, Danish Philosopher

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Why Do Bad Things Happen to Good People?

I think almost everyone has either heard that question or asked it themselves. People struggle over this question and make up excuses and lies to comfort themselves and others. The problem is, it shouldn't even be answered in the first place. Why? Because it is the wrong question.

The reason why it’s the wrong question is because it presupposes that there are good people.

The Bible says “There are none righteous, no, not one, none who does good…

People are not good. By nature, in fact, since the fall, we have been anti-good. We are bad. We are prone to sin, and sinful. We are in rebellion against God and at war with the truth, dead in our trespasses and sins. (Romans 1, Ephesians 2)

The other way to put this question is this way: Why do good things happen to bad people? Or, Why is God Gracious?

The only answer to that is: because the Worst Thing happened to the Good Man.

Jesus was the only good person, and He suffered as though He were the worst criminal, the greatest sinner, and most defiant enemy of God. He suffered that for us.

Philippians 2:5-8

"Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross."

So instead of asking “Why do bad things happen to good people”, I think we should point out that simple yet profound truth:

The Bad Thing happened to the Good Shepherd, and now, because of this, we are free and redeemed. Praise God!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Dante's Prayer - Loreena McKennit



When the dark wood fell before me
And all the paths were overgrown
When the priests of pride say there is no other way
I tilled the sorrows of stone

I did not believe because I could not see
Though you came to me in the night
When the dawn seemed forever lost
You showed me your love in the light of the stars

Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me

Then the mountain rose before me
By the deep well of desire
From the fountain of forgiveness
Beyond the ice and the fire

Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me

Though we share this humble path, alone
How fragile is the heart
Oh give these clay feet wings to fly
To touch the face of the stars

Breathe life into this feeble heart
Lift this mortal veil of fear
Take these crumbled hopes, etched with tears
We'll rise above these earthly cares

Cast your eyes on the ocean
Cast your soul to the sea
When the dark night seems endless
Please remember me...

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Free Will

The concept of free will is not a new one in Christendom. It is an issue that has been argued for ages and ages. I’m adding my meager voice to the argument, in an attempt to thrash it out for myself.

Free will is…

What does it even mean? What are we talking about here?

I think when most Christians speak of “free will” they mean something like

“Having the capacity and the inclination at any given point in existence to choose to believe in God, and having the power within oneself of attaining salvation based solely on the general offer of salvation to all.”

At least, that would seem to be the idea, from what I’ve read and heard. The problem I have with that is, I don't think it's Scriptural.

People who claim that their salvation is entirely theirs are wrong from a Biblical standpoint. They seek to claim some measure of success where they deserve none. They take glory from God and put it on themselves.

There are a few points to make concerning this concept of free will.

What Does it Mean to Be Dead in Trespasses and Sins?

Ephesians 2:1-3

"And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience— among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind."

There is nothing you can do to help yourself be saved.

Being dead is a formidable problem. Death means separation. You, in your trespasses and sins, are separated from God by a chasm that you cannot overcome.

Not only are you dead, but you are under the power of Satan, walking in darkness.

Satan doesn’t give up his slaves easily.

Not only that, be you’re enslaved to abase passions!

Finally, you are a child of wrath.

These are four big problems. Just one of these would be enough to keep you from choosing God. Paul says that this is the natural man. Dead, enslaved to Satan and sins, being a child of wrath…it is a hopeless, helpless condition.

The most one can be in this state is a free agent within the boundaries of enslavement. Your choices may be voluntary, but they are not free.

You have certain freedoms, but you are in bondage. Free agency does not equal free will. We can do many things of our own choosing, but not when it comes to salvation.

As I’ve heard it said before, all you can do is roll around in the coffin whenever it goes over a bump on its downward slide into the dark depths of hell. You cannot escape your prison. More than that, you don’t even want to. You can’t go against your nature.

“Man, in his depraved state, is under an utter inability to do any thing truly good, as was proved before at large: how then can he obey the Gospel? His nature is the very reverse of the Gospel: how can he, of himself, fall in with that plan of salvation, and accept the offered remedy? The corruption of man’s nature infallibly includes his utter inability to recover himself in any way, and whoso is convinced of the one, must needs admit the other; for they stand and fall together. Were all the purchase of Christ offered to the unregenerate man for one good thought, he cannot command it (2 Cor. 3:5), ‘Not that we are sufficient of ourselves, to think any thing as of ourselves! Were it offered on condition of a good word, yet ‘how can ye, being evil, speak good things?’ (Matthew 12:35). Nay, were it left to yourselves to choose what is easiest, Christ Himself tells you (John 15:5), ‘Without me, ye can do nothing’!” ~ Thomas Boston

So, Christ has to rescue you. You can’t do it yourself. You’re dead. He brings you to life.

We need something outside ourselves in order that we might be saved.

By our own nature, we’re toast.

But God, who is rich in mercy…” (Eph.2:4)

We didn’t save ourselves. We were dead.

“It may be you think that you cannot do all by yourself alone, yet Jesus Christ offering you help, you can of yourself embrace it, and use it for your recovery. But, O sinner, be convinced of your absolute need of the grace of Christ: for truly, there is help offered, but you cannot accept it: there is a rope cast out to draw shipwrecked sinners to land, but, alas they have no hands to lay hold of it. They are like infants exposed in the open field, who must starve, though their food be lying by them, unless some one put it in their mouths.”~ Thomas Boston

God saved us, by His sovereign grace. He doesn’t have to do it, but He does.

Can’t We Choose God Ourselves?

The problem with the idea of choosing God by our own free will is that humanity is not neutral. God is not morally neutral, so man cannot be by virtue of being created in His image. We are one side or the other. Since Adam, we’ve chosen the wrong side.

All men have sinned (Rom.3:23), and we are called enemies of God (Rom.5:10). That’s not neutrality.

Man by nature suppresses the truth, and is a sworn enemy of God.

He’s being bombarded with the truth of God, and instead of admitting the truth, he perverts it into something else. Being created for worship, he must worship something, and, refusing to give God the glory that is His due, man instead worships various versions of himself.

The heart of sin is rebellion, and we’ve rebelled against God since Eden.

Man is at enmity with God because he desires to keep his crown of autonomy. This is why people refuse to fall down in worship of God – and this is also why they cannot, by their very nature and debased desires, choose God of their own will.

Doing our own will, in our sinful, unregenerate nature, is called only one thing: sin.

What Can We Choose, Then?

There’s a specific problem one can run into when discussing free will. Most people think that people such as myself – Calvinists, Reformed Baptists, etc. – believe that God does everything and you don’t have a say. Basically, the stereotype for people like me is that we believe people don’t have a will at all. That’s not the case. On the flip side, I have personal stereotypes for the “other side”; they believe to strongly in their own abilities, and not enough in God’s sovereignty; the list goes on. Therefore, I must digress for a moment and say that this is not an attack on any specific denomination or what have you. I am merely outlining the truth of this issue as I see it presented in Scripture.

I’m not questioning one’s ability to choose what they want.

I’m questioning their ability to want anything but sin, Satan, and death.

Romans 8:7

"For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for it does not submit to God's law; indeed, it cannot."

This verse does not say “it will not”, meaning it is a specific voluntary choice at the time. It says “it cannot”. The natural man, the mind that is set on the flesh, is incapable of submitting to God’s law and turning to God.

I’ve heard it argued before that the sovereignty of God automatically means that we have to serve Him, whether we want to or not, rather than truly wanting to serve Him. This is not the case.

However, I have a question for people who say this. Why do they seem to need the choice to say no to God? Why do they even want that option? It seems like they’re holding on to idolatry, worshiping self, thinking they have enough power and authority to contribute to the entirely free and gracious gift of God.

"Whilst a man is persuaded that he has it in his power to contribute anything, be it ever so little, to his salvation, he remains in carnal self-confidence; he is not a self-despairer, and therefore is not duly humbled before God, he believes he may lend a helping hand in his salvation, but on the contrary, whoever is truly convinced that the whole work depends singly on the will of God, such a person renounces his own will and strength; he waits and prays for the operation of God, nor waits and prays in vain . . ."

- Martin Luther

Where Does The Holy Spirit Come In?

The Holy Spirit is the Person of God who regenerates us (John 3:8), convicts us of sin (John 16:8), indwells us (Eph. 1:13), gifts us (1Co.12:4), beautifies us (Gal.5:22-26), leads us and directs us (John 16:13).

Without conviction of sin, we don’t see the need to turn to Christ. Without conviction of sin, we would still choose sin and self over God.

The Holy Spirit goes where Jesus commands; into the hearts of believers. He is here with Christians to help us while we are yet on earth. He is here to sanctify us, to lead us to the truth and help us understand.

How Then Are We Responsible For Our Own Actions? Isn't the Holy Spirit a Puppet-Master? Doesn’t a Completely Sovereign God Mean That My Choices Are Not My Own?

Scripture is not crystal clear on how God’s sovereignty co-exists with man’s responsibility; but both truths are in the Bible very clearly. It is a mystery that God has not chosen to reveal. Man is responsible for his actions, his choices, and his words; but God is sovereign over it all. These two truths can neither be denied nor understood by someone such as myself. But I will defend them both.

We still choose what we want, and so the decision is still our responsibility. Whether we choose life or death, sin or righteousness, Satan or Christ – that is our decision to make, and we are accountable for it.

Proverbs 16:33

"The lot is cast into the lap, but its every decision is from the Lord."

Even random decisions are directed by God in His sovereignty. But be assured you are responsible for every choice you make.

What Does This Mean?

This means that the grace of God is inexplicable, wonderful, and mysterious, and the glory and praise goes entirely to Him. What a wondrous God He is, to help us in this way! What mercy is it to be able to turn to the cross, to throw off the weight of sin, and take on the easy load of Christ’s righteousness! To be able to stand before God, pronounced perfect, instead of receiving the punishment we so justly deserve. Great is the Lord, and greatly to be praised! His grace is astounding, in that He died for us when we did not choose Him; He loved us when we despised Him; He obeyed and lived righteously where we disobeyed and chose to sin. He died for us.

“In conclusion then, let the saints admire the freedom and power of grace, which came to them in their helpless condition, made their chains fall off, the iron gate to open to them, raised the fallen creatures, and brought them out of the state of sin and wrath., wherein they would have lain and perished, had not they been mercifully visited. Let the natural man be sensible of his utter inability to recover himself. Know, that you are without strength: and cannot come to Christ, till you be drawn. You are lost, and cannot help yourself. This may shake the foundation of your hopes, if you never saw your absolute need of Christ and his grace, but think to contrive for yourself by your civility, morality, drowsy wishes, and duties, and by a faith and repentance which have sprung out of your natural powers, without the power and efficacy of the grace of Christ. O be convinced of your absolute need of Christ, and His overcoming grace, believe your utter inability to recover yourself, that so you may be humbled, shaken out of your self-confidence, and lie down in dust and ashes, groaning out your miserable case before the Lord. A proper sense of your natural impotence, the impotence of depraved human nature, would be a step towards a delivery.” ~ Thomas Boston

Monday, November 2, 2009

The Meaning of Words - Part I

Because these words can mean different things to different people, I wanted to write out just what they mean from my perspective; so when I use them, people who read this will know where I'm coming from.

It's a terrible thing to misunderstand written words, but it also happens very easily. So, here goes. :)



God

God is the transcendent Three-in-One, the Trinity, unified in purpose and will.
Immortal, invisible, God only wise.
The one true God.
The only God Who existed before the imagination of men.
Always has been, always will be.
His thoughts are as far above our thoughts as the furthest reaches of the universe are above the earth.



Jesus

God the Son.
A person of the Trinity.
Existed before time began.
Existed before the foundation of the world.
All things were created through Him and for Him.
He is the reason for everything.
He is the Saviour.
He died so that mankind might be reconciled to God.
So that the gap would be filled.
So that sin, Satan and death would be defeated forever and ever.
His promises do not fail.
His love does not fail.
His word does not fail.
His death was not in vain.
He accomplished His purpose.
He came to save, died in misery, and is exulted in glory as the victor.
He is more than a prophet.
He is more than a priest.
He is more than a teacher.
He is more than a king.
He is all of these, and more.
He is Lord.



Christian

A Christian is someone who puts their faith in Christ.
Who trusts the promises that He made.
Who clings to the cross as the only hope of salvation.
Who follows Christ no matter what the cost, because he loves Him.
Who despairs over their sin.
Who sins.
Who realizes that those sins are taken away.
Christ wears them.
He exchanged the Christian's sin for His own righteousness.
Someday, we'll stand before God and we won't be empty-handed.
We'll hold the righteousness of Christ, and therefore be proclaimed righteous.
A Christian realizes that there is no merit in themselves; the merit is all in Christ, and He has graciously redeemed us.
A Christian looks forward in hope.
A Christian trusts Jesus, and obeys Him, enduring any and all suffering for the sake of the glorious name of Jesus.



Bible

The Bible is the Word of God.
Breathed out by God; written through men.
Men were carried along by the Holy Spirit to write these words.
The Bible is inspired.
It is of great worth.
It points to Jesus.
It is the history of redemption, the tale of reconciliation and love, the record of God's astounding grace.


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Feel free to add more. :)